Sorry, Mommy is tired

Some days are better than others. But most of the time I am pretty tired. I like to blame the heat, which it’s probably one of the many reasons for me being tired all the time. But I think this is just apart of me now.

Sleep doesn’t come easy for  me. My head spinning with thoughts and ideas. Dwelling on the stupid thing I said last week to a complete stranger. Remembering on the calender I have tons of stuff to do this week. Escrow closes in less than 2 weeks, when should I start packing? Did I tell Nathan I love him today? Does Audree think I’m a good mommy? Did I eat anything besides mixed nuts all day? How many coke zeros did I drink today? Just a little glimpse into my nightly thoughts. I try to battle out the negative thoughts, but sometimes it’s hard . It’s hard to ALWAYS be positive. I try my best. I’m not perfect.

I can honestly say I’m no where near the perfect mom. There are days where I am watching the clock waiting for Nathan to walk in through the door, other times I’m Queen of the castle. But sometimes, mommy is tired……..

…..not just cause taking care of a little one and running a household  is hard, but taking care of herself is harder. Mommy is battling moods that go up and down, and lately they’ve been mostly down.

Mommy’s depressed.

You see, being a mom is my favorite thing in the world. My child and my family is more important to me than anything. But taking care of yourself and putting yourself at a high standard can be difficult at times when all you focuses on is the health and wellbeing of your family. I don’t ever doubt if I’m a bad mom. Im a fantastic mom. But I’m a terrible caretaker for myself. My mental health. My wellbeing.

I’m slowly changing that. Yoga is becoming a new venture for me. My goal is to make it a lifestyle. My meditation is very important to me. But there are those days where I can’t move, can’t focus, can’t fully give anyone my all. I just need to remember I have a blessed life. I have the things I have always ever wanted. I have a supportive and committed finance, and a child I have dreamt about and she’s growing too fast.

To my sweet little baby,

Mommy does her absolute best. I will always provide you with all the love you need. You will never go without like me and your father have growing up, you always come first . Above all. But please forgive mommy when she’s tired. Tomorrow will be a better day❤️

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3 thoughts on “Sorry, Mommy is tired

  1. Honey, these are the same questions all new moms ask. I’ve seen. You in action you are just fine. Love ya On Aug 10, 2016 12:52 AM, “Memoirs of the Quiet” wrote:

    > Memoirs of the Quiet posted: “Some days are better than others. But most > of the time I am pretty tired. I like to blame the heat, which it’s > probably one of the many reasons for me being tired all the time. But I > think this is just apart of me now. Sleep doesn’t come easy for &” >

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