I am a lover of alone time and silence…but I tend to have many moments of loneliness.
I get jealous of other people’s social life…but I feel socially awkward and prefer to be at home in my pajamas.
I watch romantic love movies and wish my life was like that .. but am incredibly cynical and believe romance is a facade and chivalry is dead.
I expect everyone in my life to be open and honest with me…but I fail to be fully transparent to them.
On the outside I appear to be a strong person…but on the inside I’m crying inside and tired of being hurt over and over.
I try to tell myself my childhood doesn’t define me…but in all reality it has given me trust issues and fears of abandonment.
If anyone mistreated my friends or family I would stand up for them and what’s right… but I let my mother treat me like a piece of shit every day.
I get completely passionate about something…but then it fizzles away and I’m on to the next thing.
I want so bad to have another sibling for Audree…but then I fear pregnancy, childbirth, and the extra stress.
I will do anything for the one I love…but rarely get treated the same.
I live for being outdoors and experiencing fresh air…but sometimes the anxiety of leaving the house or pure exhaustion keep me inside most days.
I long to be complimented…but question the legitimacy if one is recieved.
I am a dreamer…but also utterly realistic.
These are mine. What are yours?